Endo Excision: Day 109 (countdown to hysterectomy)

(Photos by Haus of Vladia; 1-2 @ The Token Lounge on 8/29; 3-4 @ The Vault on 8/30)

On the 100th day after my surgery (8/29), I performed a high-energy headlining ELSIE BINX set for the first time since January. It felt awesome. I didn't even feel like the death the following day, thank goodness. For the first time, I uttered the words, "I think my surgery actually did something." I finally felt like myself in my own body again, even though it was still challenging, as always. Progress is progress and I'm so grateful that I can trust my body to perform again. HOWEVER, that will all come to a grinding halt soon enough...

My partial hysterectomy and second look for endometriosis will happen on Mon, Oct 13!! 🥳🥳🥳 They'll be removing my uterus (leaving my left ovary and cervix; my right ovary and fallopian tubes are already gone) and double-checking that there aren't more endo lesions anywhere in my pelvis and abdomen that can be removed. If they find some lesions that can be removed safely, they'll excise them at that time.

The nature of the "if this, then that" surgery plan is frustrating because I won't know what my recovery will be like until I'm in said recovery. People are asking me if it'll be a shorter or longer recovery and I truthfully don't know. I suspect it'll be a bit shorter because the majority of the endo lesions have been excised and a partial hysterectomy is very routine, but it really just depends on how it all goes down.

When I tell you I'm so excited... It's weird, I know, but it's a surgery I've been hoping and praying for my entire adult life. And I don't use the "pray" word very often. The excision was only part one and I'm beyond ready for part two, "yeet the ute", as we've now collectively coined.

If you read my last blog post, you know this recovery has been a roller coaster. HEALING IS NOT LINEAR. Yes, I'm still bleeding inconsistently consistently and yes, that's still within the realm of "normal" since my body has no clue what to do without an IUD and on new hormonal medications. But hopefully the next month will be relatively painless as we countdown to the hysterectomy.

I can breathe a small sigh of relief knowing that it's all scheduled but there is stress and anxiety leading up to it that's beyond my control. But I'm so happy. Can you tell I'm happy?

I'm so happy it's all happening. Finally.

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